Old Man Winter

No matter how much I kick and scream, he comes every single year.  That energy-zapping, unwelcome guest who is relentless in his pursuit to ruin my life.  Old Man Winter.  Okay, so maybe I’m being a little dramatic–but only a little.  I seriously despise being cold and almost everything that goes with it.

Our family lived in beautiful South Florida for four years and although I do recall feeling like we were in a temperature time-warp, I honestly never minded the non-existent winters.  Needless to say, relocating to Northern Virginia was a shock to the system after wearing sunscreen year-round and singing Christmas carols in flip-flops.

Yep. That about sums it up.

If I ever had any doubts about seasonal depression I can say moving here has cleared those doubts right up.  My first winter here, I quickly fell into depression and spent many an hour crying in the recliner.  Of course I was heartsick from a stressful move, but I didn’t give enough credit to the grey skies and bitter winds for my unbalanced emotional state.

It wasn’t until Spring came that I realized how heavy Old Man Winter had weighed on my heart.  I remember a few days into Spring feeling as though I’d been slipped a B-12 shot.  My energy and zeal for life was instantaneously restored once I could trust the sun really was going to shine the next day and the next.

For a long time I would dodge saying “I hate winter.”  I felt like that would be publicizing God had created something faulty.  Instead I’d choose, “I just prefer summer” or “I don’t really like cold weather,” as not to sound too grumpy or cynical.  But the fact is, I hate winter.  Mainly because it’s a stimulus for depression, and when winter’s coming I know that’s coming along with it.

In an effort to pull through this winter with slightly more optimism, I made a mental list of great things that can only happen in winter. Here they are:

-Boots and cute scarves

-Soup, lots of soup

-Bundled up babies

-Kids sledding

-Fireplaces

As you can see, my list is short.  But every time I watch Benjamin waddle down the frozen sidewalk, sit beside a blazing fire, or make a huge batch of steaming soup, I remember it’s because of winter I had this moment.  Then I go outside to get the mail and remember–brrrrrrrrr–it’s because of winter that I hate winter.

If you find yourself in a deep funk right now, you are in good company.  If you are usually active and involved, but find yourself weaseling out of events and instead crying in your recliner, you’re not alone.  I think part of making it through life–especially life with depression–is being honest with yourself.  Accept the seasons you know you won’t be fully yourself, and remember it’s only temporary, because Spring really will come!

To every thing there is a season,

and a time to every purpose under the heaven.

A time to weep, and a time to laugh;

a time to mourn, and a time to dance.

Ecclesiastes 3 : 1 & 4

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5 responses to “Old Man Winter

  1. D Carr

    The winters there are definitely different from our winters. I think the snow is beautiful but don’t think I would like it the way they have it up North but I will say as a “younger” person, I like you, hated the cold. I did not like any part of it, even the cute scarves & gloves, But as a “older” lady, I really enjoy the winter days! lol! Our children come for a visit and never take their coats off…it’s too cold in our house. The temperature stays around 60! You will understand one day. I hope this brings a smile to you. 🙂 (and will prepare you for the future! lol!)

  2. B Smith

    What happened to “global warming” ??? It’s been cold as a well digger in Idaho down here in South Miss. !!

  3. Nana Ann

    Awesome, Macie!! Nana Ann always tries to stay positive and LOVES the WINTER time while visiting with family in Minnesota. I have loved wearing my furry comfy SNOW BOOTS almost everyday! But with the bizarre WINTER Mississippi is having, Nana Ann is preferring to just go straight home after work and get under the covers!! On weekends, well “I’m a hermit”! And I think my black turtlenecks are just going to become a part of my skin!! 🙂 And let’s just say, I am afraid to even peek at MY HEATING BILL!!
    But I know Spring will come, just wish it would hurry up!! Love you, Mae Mae!!!
    PS Do have good Memories of the Snow and the Adventure driving on the ice!! So yes, can find something positive!!!

  4. Alicia Bancroft

    “You are not alone” #truth AND…I HATE WINTER TOO 😀

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